Thoughts on Turning Thirty

May 26, 2018

Today I turn 30 years old!! That feels so incredibly strange to type out. “Hello, my name is Lauren and I’m 30 years old.” I am having a bit of a hard time with this realization that I’ve completed 1/3 of my life already, and find my first grey hair, because inside I still feel and act like I’m 25 (minus the hangovers, those don't feel like I'm 25). 
It’s a tough age for us women, and I just recently started realizing that. The fact that I am getting older and can’t go backwards kind of freaks me out, if I’m being honest. It feels as though I’m on a strict timeline now, and I don’t like that. But looking back I wouldn't change a thing, so many amazing things happened to!
It’s a huge milestone.
To say that I’ve lived for this many years and done everything I have done already makes me excited to see what the future holds. Ten years ago I would have never guessed that my life would be how it is now, falling in love, having a house with chickens ducks, two dogs and cat, find the true meaning of friendship, so to think what my life will be like in another ten years is like a surprise wrapped in bows and I can't wait to unwrap all the goodies! 
I’m wiser. 
My 20’s were like the stepping stones to get to where I needed to be by 30. I can proudly look back on my 20’s and remember all that I learned, all of the mistakes I made, ups and downs, and trying to find myself, and know that I’ll never have to experience those things again.
I am on the right path.
I can honestly say that at this moment in my life I know exactly what I want to do and what I need to do to get there.  It may take a few more years to get there, but knowing that I’ve lined up all my ducks in a row feels so good, and I have the best support system from my husband, family & friends.
Time to be a little selfish.
I will say, one thing I will never change even in my 30's is I always put others first before myself, and I did that A LOT in my 20's. But one thing I am going to change is my 30's and beyond is to STOP MAKING EXCUSES. I've put alot of my dreams on hold for varies reasons and that stops today. I will work for Disney (maybe not anytime soon but one day), I will focus on what makes me happy and that is this blog and FINALLY starting my youtube channel. Just going to focus a little on me this time around.
Regardless of how I feel today, I’m thankful for everything I have now more than ever. I’m sure everything will fall into place the way its supposed to and just because I’m one year older, doesn’t mean I have to live like I’m 60. I’m still that same girl, with stars in her eyes and wonder in her heart.

Thank You to all the amazing shops, OhsoLively, LittleBlueOlive & DCrewDesigns who collaborated with me on this post you truly made all my birthday wishes come true & to Laura's Focus Photography for such a fun photo shoot!

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